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biochem, its me against you this friday. please be kind to my gpa. you're my last class that i will ever have to deal with at ucsd.
ive been looking at the yonsei website because thats what procrastinators do and then i realized that i will be on a plane to korea in less than 5 days and im really really not ready to go yet! im so excited but i need more time.. like one more day or two.
AHHHHHHH back to studying.
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| and sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh some of them still make me smile. remember the whipped cream night? or the day we made heather's bookshelf? or missing the flight at san fran and laughing hysterically on airbart? and drinking for no reason.. just because it was wednesday night and we were sophmores and lalalaing still?
or even how on my birthday i helped jenny dig a hole in the wet wet sand for the bonfire and how on cathy's birthday everyone barfed in that one stranger's dorm and how fun sungod has been every year. EVERY YEAR.
im just doing this because i have one more paragraph to write on the effects of tying sutures around sections of a beating heart. let me tell you something. you probably know as much about the electrical pathways in the heart as i do, and so i feel like writing this last paragraph will really melt my brains out of my earholes.. because the past five pages have been written after i researched and asked and read on the topic before writing because i dont know anything. the administration shouldnt allow people taking prereqs to take this lab concurrently. i feel crazy.
time to make a mess on the floor..... goodbye braincells. or interneurons. whatever. it was nice knowing you, but you have been quite unhelpful to me these days anyways.
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| and its not just me either. this year has sucked. fuck you 2006-2007. you have given me nothing but pain and misery.
ix wear xglasses (8:53:49 PM): I want choco
PyRoGiRL212 (8:53:54 PM): take it
PyRoGiRL212 (8:53:57 PM): cake, dove
PyRoGiRL212 (8:54:04 PM): its because youve been a good friend
ix wear xglasses (8:54:12 PM): I want it all
PyRoGiRL212 (8:54:12 PM): (goodbye forever)
ix wear xglasses (8:54:18 PM): What the hell r u talking about
PyRoGiRL212 (8:54:20 PM): jump*
ix wear xglasses (8:54:27 PM): I'm never
PyRoGiRL212 (8:54:30 PM): THATS HOW MY SUICIDE IS GOING TO BE
ix wear xglasses (8:54:31 PM): Ever
ix wear xglasses (8:54:37 PM): Gonna let you die
ix wear xglasses (8:54:42 PM): First
ix wear xglasses (8:54:47 PM): I will do cpr
ix wear xglasses (8:54:54 PM): So that way
ix wear xglasses (8:54:59 PM): I can die
ix wear xglasses (8:55:04 PM): And then you
those types of conversations are the only ones that make me laugh these days. and its a hysterical laugh.
school needs to end now. or at least make my hard work pay off. im willing to stay in school if working hard meant 4.0. then i wouldnt even mind the crappy weather, lack of socialness, and lack of things to do.
cant wait to leave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! korea here i come. a place where i can go out and get drinks with a professor and wear heels in the rain and have hot undiscovered american halfies roam the campus of yonsei!!!!!!!
autoresponse: nancy is dead
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| and its really really gross, but im not feeling any sick symptoms and really, im scared that this week its going to blow up into something that knocks me off my feet and then i will fail out of school. seriously though, my left tonsil look like what doctors see in textbooks under the "things you should surgically remove" section.
but im too cheap to have it checked up by ucsd health. tee hee. they're probably going to tell me what ive started doing anyways, gargle salt water and get rest.
in other news, im kindof in denial that everything is going to drastically change in a month. im leaving for korea for half a freaking year, cathy is graduating from college (sorta), ill be done with one of the hardest quarters of my life (knock on wood), ill be getting my first animal handling experience (hopefully), ill be thousands of miles away from all my friends and family and making new friends and seeing new family, and ill be done applying for australia.the idea of all this happening so soon kinda sorta really freaks me out. but im so excited for it. but its scary, in a good way i guess.
im just not ready. especially not for school to end. i mean, i want it to because its sucking the life out of me and everyone i know but im not ready to take the midterms and finals that are coming up so fast.....
so starting tomorrow, my goal is to spend at least 3 hours after class on MWF at the lab or library, and 6 hours on tu/th at the same places. oh, and go to all office hours and sections. i have to be clutch for once in my life! eeek pressure!
and i discovered yesterday how much i love dissecting. i mean, i knew i liked it because its so interesting, but when i was talking to my mom and bro about it i got so excited. i think they were freaked out the whole time i talked about what i did in class the past few weeks but ahhhhhhhhhhhh so interesting! how cool it would be if i could someday do surgery. big dreams huh?
i already facebooked, checked all my email, and now i updated xanga. hopefully ive run out of ways to prevent myself from reading that one last page of physiology. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
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| Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
-Aristotle (and my mom, ha)
edit:
the next quote i got in my handy dandy google random quote thingy is:
Trying is the first step towards failure.
-Homer Simpson
sigh. im kindof leaning towards quote #2 tonight. lets hope tomorrow is better.
edit 2: this is so long that i could kill myself for doing this
but i cant sleep, this is just for you monica! (god i am a time waster like no other)
My 70 Confessions
1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
uc davis telling me that ive been accepted to vet school even though i am unqualified and havent applied yet
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
i try
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
if i was bored with life
4. Do you take compliments well?
sometimes
5. Do you play Sudoku?
i hate all things involving numbers unless its money
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
for a while i think so.
7. Do you like tongue rings?
no, seems kinda pornographic to me
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
yes, those were fun
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs?
yes, as long as theyre not going to try to convert me. so i guess no christians.
13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
be pursued, im lazy
14. Use three words to describe yourself at the moment.
grungy, physically tired, and mentally awake
15. Do any songs make you cry?
ugh, yes.
16. Are you continuing your education?
i hope so. i really want this vet school thing so much. im going to get rejected and be that person that reapplies every year and gets some miracle interview just because of persisitence and nothing else.
17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
nope
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grab?
my laptop
19. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
im actually not sure.. so ill say monica!
21. Favorite children's movie?
mulan, lion king
22. what color are your eyes?
asian brown
23. How tall are you?
5'3
25. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
i kick myself everyday thinking about what i could have done better freshman year.
26. Any secret admirers?
ha, that would be a nice change
27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
yes, theyre in my car somewhere
28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
a gazillion years ago... i think with andrew? yea, definately a gazillion years ago.
29 Favorite ex?
daron, i love daron.
31. Do u like mayo?
yes!
32.Do u like mustard?
i just started liking mustard this year actually.. i guess that means im a grown up now
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
sleep. i eat more than a should and sleep less than i should.
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
used to be dad, now more like my mom
35. How long does it take you to shower?
15 minutes on the dot every time. so weird.
36. Can you do the splits?
no, but im working on it
37. What movie do you want to see right now?
i havent seen a movie preview in ages so i dont know
39. What did you do for New Year's Eve?
went to universal with cathy and ally because we couldnt drink. saddest thing ever. next year though...
40. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
i think i mangled darons arm watching that shit. i hate kids in scary movies. creepy little monsters
42. Do you own a camera phone?
yes and it is shitty
44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
hahahahahahahahhahaha this was designed for white people.
45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
u
47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
recently, 0 to 4. normally, 6ish
48. Do you like care bears?
not really
49. What do you buy at the Movies?
i usually bring stuff in from walmart because movie food is so expensive
50. Do you know how to play poker?
yes. and i suck.
51.Do you wear your seatbelt?
always
52. What do you wear to sleep?
whitney pe shirt and boxers. or nothing, those are my door is locked days.
53. Anything big ever happen in your town?
opening of zion market. that place is the shit, 10 pepero boxes for a dollar?? love it.
54. Is your hair straight or curly?
i permed it.
55. Is your tongue pierced?
my lisp is bad enough thank you
56. Do you like Liver and Onions?
i used to like liver actually. and onions are in the holy trinity with garlic and tomatoes.
57.Have you ever been in love?
yes
58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
funny people that can be serious
59. Ever been to L.A.?
of course 63. Do you hate chocolate?
i wish i did, id save lots of money and empty calories that way
65. Are you a gullible person?
more than almost anyone i know
66. Do you need a bf/gf to be happy?
i am a needy person. but i hope the answer is no.
67. do you have socks on right now?
ew, not to bed, thats nasty and uncomfortable
68. Are you easy to get along with?
not in particular
69. What is your favorite time of day?
1 pm when i get up because the sunlight or dream i was having woke me up and i feel happy to just lie in bed and think about nothing
70. Favorite Porno?
i was going to type the name of the only porno title i know but its too vulgar. but it was pretty funny when the guy was going to rent it, saw me, and walked around the store until i walked away from the cash register area.
maybe if i watch another physiology lecture ill fall asleep. endocrine systems bore me.
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